A few days ago, I had to have a telephone interview for the social services from the same government complex in another city where I first met the criminal complainant. There are a number of provincial government offices in that complex.... And I didn't have good memories going back to the original situation.... I wasn't sure if it was because of my own behaviour or others' behaviour, or a combination of both...? And even though I said in a post a few weeks ago that I'd already given all the right answers to the police project, I decided that one more was necessary.... There were police and/or firefighters in the police project who had asked the complainant to help them set me up many years ago; and sometimes I heard they'd been offended by me in December 1998 when I wrote a letter with sexual comments--even though it was intended as a joke.... Didn't know if they were still offended, or not, but I wanted to apologize--by sending flowers--and otherwise, I just wanted to make a nice gesture.... I wasn't sure of exactly where to send the flowers but I sent them in care of the police chief who was connected to these parties, directly or indirectly....
Today, I want to state that my "joke letter" was a bad joke.... The parties had wanted to provoke me and they succeeded...and there were reasons for what was done.... And we can't change the past, and whether people want to admit it or not there was good that came out of this matter.... However, going forward, I want to "clean up the mess," wherever possible.... Normally, even if someone tries to provoke a person, it's not desirable to react to them.... And I want to be a better person....
Also, the laws and business matters can be very, very complex.... It's one thing to even know the law and it's another thing to see how the law is applied, in various circumstances...and there are exceptions and all kinds of complications, I'm sure.... One thing I definitely have to tell myself--as I have for some time--is that if any potential couple or perceived couple has a conflict in a business or legal matter, it's undesirable to try to start a relationship...!!! It's better to stay far away from it.... The complainant threw me off track, in different ways, in 1998...and the situation was very unusual....
At this time, we have hindsight to see what happened in the past.... And as I've said, I generally want to be a better person than I was back then.... If there's any more writing that's needed on this topic, I'll continue further another time...?
[As I might've mentioned sometimes, the complainant was actually familiar with my life in 1998, even though I was unaware of it and knew nothing of him except what came out in our contacts.... Some people wondered why the joke letter was so aggressive, but it really had made a difference to me that the complainant SEEMED to be familiar and comfortable with me at the beginning.... I had built up a scenario in my mind which I thought was correct...but there was a lot more going on than I could've imagined...! Also, I was reacting to a couple other executives of the government agency who'd been contacted about me...and I believe it was an attempt to provoke me.... There was a certain amount of anger in my "joke letter," and I wasn't completely thinking clearly about everything.... I'd also had a physical injury and it made a difference to me....]
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